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Cora Anderson will be 93 years old on Saturday. I keep joking that we should invite a bunch of Thelemites to her party because it will be such a blessing all around. Besides, all we Feri practitioners are pretty much into Love and Will ourselves.
There may not be a party at her home, as planned. Several months ago, she turned to me and asked when I thought she was going to die. At first I temporized and said I didn't know, she'd go when she was ready etc. giving the usual anodynes. But she really wanted to know and the information that came through was that she would get to her 93rd birthday and go not long after. We shall see what happens. A couple of months ago, I was telling her about all the people coming to town for her birthday party and she said, "I can't see that far. It's all dark."
Onyx reminded me of that yesterday, because that latter has come true. Cora went into the hospital again Tuesday morning because all of a sudden she couldn't see.
We spent hours yesterday in the San Leandro hospital, visiting Cora. I did energy work on her while Onyx bustled around trying to get good information from the caregivers on what exactly is going on with her, and making phone calls about her pain prescriptions that could be used instead of the hospital's morphine. The energy work usually relaxes her visibly and palpably, often putting her to sleep.Yesterday it didn't seem to have that much effect. I kept praying for her ease and at one point noticed I had switched to "can't you let go?" It is not my choice to make, of course, but her body is so tired.
Cora is riddled with pain. She is now mostly blind (the recent development because of an inflamed artery in her temple that they are trying to treat). She has lost still more weight, it seems. Some people are praying for her healing, I am praying for her ease. I am praying she can make the bigger decision, the one that has been coming for some time. I know that death itself is a form of healing, so my prayers for ease include ease for her body and soul right now, and the ability to ease into the transition that must come.
If you wish to make a donation for her care, as a birthday present, you can send it via paypal to corafund@yahoo.com
This info page has buttons that will allow immediate and ongoing donations. Just scroll down and click.
Love and Will... and ease.
There may not be a party at her home, as planned. Several months ago, she turned to me and asked when I thought she was going to die. At first I temporized and said I didn't know, she'd go when she was ready etc. giving the usual anodynes. But she really wanted to know and the information that came through was that she would get to her 93rd birthday and go not long after. We shall see what happens. A couple of months ago, I was telling her about all the people coming to town for her birthday party and she said, "I can't see that far. It's all dark."
Onyx reminded me of that yesterday, because that latter has come true. Cora went into the hospital again Tuesday morning because all of a sudden she couldn't see.
We spent hours yesterday in the San Leandro hospital, visiting Cora. I did energy work on her while Onyx bustled around trying to get good information from the caregivers on what exactly is going on with her, and making phone calls about her pain prescriptions that could be used instead of the hospital's morphine. The energy work usually relaxes her visibly and palpably, often putting her to sleep.Yesterday it didn't seem to have that much effect. I kept praying for her ease and at one point noticed I had switched to "can't you let go?" It is not my choice to make, of course, but her body is so tired.
Cora is riddled with pain. She is now mostly blind (the recent development because of an inflamed artery in her temple that they are trying to treat). She has lost still more weight, it seems. Some people are praying for her healing, I am praying for her ease. I am praying she can make the bigger decision, the one that has been coming for some time. I know that death itself is a form of healing, so my prayers for ease include ease for her body and soul right now, and the ability to ease into the transition that must come.
If you wish to make a donation for her care, as a birthday present, you can send it via paypal to corafund@yahoo.com
This info page has buttons that will allow immediate and ongoing donations. Just scroll down and click.
Love and Will... and ease.
Will anyone be taking donations for her at Pcon?
Thanks for all you did for Cora, and all you and Onyx are doing.
hugs and Blessings,
Shimmer
Love and Will. Ease and Peace.
Make sure you get some rest, we tend to let go of things like that when caring for our loved ones.
I see a veritable parade of the Mighty Dead waiting to receive her when she wills it. I pray for strength and courage for her, also vision, to be able to see all the love and glory that awaits her when she chooses to go.
Meanwhile, I wish her ease from pain and distress. And meanwhile, I thank you again for all the amazing support you give her. The whole community should thank you.
comfort, ease, and may i add, joy and reunion.
you're probably not the only one who has had the thought
'goddammit when are you going to just....let.... go?!?!?!'
but she is one strong-willed lady. of course when it comes to oneself, after a life full of living, self will fight to the end!
I feel that Cora will make it to 93. Bless her, and thanks for sharing your thoughts. I had to go through this with my adopted father when he was bed-ridden and in the condition much like Cora. We talked about him moving on, as he could not see, walk, or function other than talk. We will meet on the otherside, I hope.
Also, can you give Swan my cell number: 408-480-0222. Sorry we can't make it to see you, and your folks on Friday...I will see you at P-Con.
And hugs and love to you.
I've also arranged an immediate donation and a continuing one. Had I known of the fund ere now I'd have done that earlier.
I have to keep reminding myself that death is the Greater Feast.
I wish her ease, and that when it is her Will, she may pass painlessly and peacefully.
Ease...
Glad you're there.
Shira
May Cora have ease and comfort and move on peacefully when she so Wills it.